I never knew where God would take me in my life. It could be dangerous, could be exciting and it could be down right depressing! Obviously to Him, it's never all those because He gives the best for all of us who believe and trust in Him.
Being a teenager just makes it that tiny bit harder to overcome pressures and temptations; maybe they are tests that God is giving us. I don't know. I've felt scared, excited but most recently depressed. But aren't all Christians meant to be happy? Well I'm on that road of discovery to find that feeling where you can just be content with everything and anything you have. And of course, during times of trouble to persevere and keep on trusting Him.
Being young and all, there must be a lot of people that could complain that I am too young to look at such a mature perception in life. But I know that God will work in any person, most probably the ones that we think are the unlikeliest of all. And that's what's amazing about God. He can just turn a boring and depressed person like me into something wonderful who will bear much fruit.
"I am the vine; and you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing" - John 15:5 (NIV)
"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given you" - John 15:7 (NIV)
I'm not perfect. I'm FAR from perfect. I'm messed up. I've messed up. A messed up Christian. My paths weren't straight and that was due to the desires of my human flesh but God had opened my eyes to see that I was not honouring him, I was disobedient, what I did didn't please Him. It pleased someone else. I realised that I was relying too much on my own power that is like brittle bone compared to God's. No one can EVER beat His mighty hand. That's why I couldn't live without Him. He wanted me to realise and say, "Hey you! Where have you been? I haven't spoken to you for ages, is everything alright? Please tell me everything!"
Obviously to that, I was ignorant and ignorance became laziness and laziness became a total fleshy life that I didn't even like! Even if I tried to entertain myself, it wasn't long lasting. I was never content with anything. I always wanted more. And of course, that didn't only cause upset for me but for everyone else surrounding me. My parents, my brother, my friends, my teachers. And most importantly God. He didn't want me living that way I know. And now I understand that God wanted me to see what it was like to live 'without him' but during that time of despair, He was there along with me. I just didn't realise it. Or maybe I didn't want to realise that.
I've asked the Lord for full forgiveness after He's spoken to me through my parents. This was about a month ago and although the words were harsh and prickly to my heart, I knew that I had to untangle the knot and give it all to Him. I'm His creation after all. With defects and all, I am still His. He loves me and I love Him. God would never leave me nor forsake me. This also applies to you reading this. Whatever faith you have and whatever stage you are in your faith, I'd like to leave you with one message: You are His and all He ever wants is a relationship with you because He loves you. He loves you this much; He gave His son to die for you, so a bridge can be built so we can cross to the other side and talk to God again. HOW GREAT IS THAT?! We don't have to feel guilty, and with the Spirit's conviction, we are free of sin. Well, the power of sin to be exact. He will forgive you if you ask Him. He is a God who is Good, Great and Gracious. Start with a prayer and who knows, you could be moving mountains.
He replied, "... if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20
I know I am just a teenager but I'm sharing what I've experienced to encourage those who are in the place where I used to be. To remind the
hope that we have as children of God and that it is not the end just yet.
Don't give up.
Hold on to the hope that we have in Jesus Christ and do your part for Him :)
This is probably the longest post I've written but I feel it necessary to just empty the things out of the box and
freshen my mind with the truth. And to of course give myself a break from French revision, haha! (please pray for me to do my best for AS level French speaking exam tomorrow :)) But that's all I want to mention. It was nice to empty my mind and blogging is one of the ways where I could just express my feelings and faith. I hope you are encouraged by this. Just by reading this, I feel truly blessed. Thanks for taking the time to read :)
God bless,
Priscilla x
